It was a trifle buried in the open letter post last week, but at a visit to Dr. Morgan last Thursday, I was told that I was suffering from Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD).
I was none too happy about this diagnosis, and honestly, I didn't agree. But I trust my doctor, and if she thought that treating PTSD would go further in alleviating my high blood pressure than even blood pressure medication, then I was willing to follow her instructions.
So, I filled my prescription, and so far, so good. I'm not appearing to have any of the more common side effects; and although I can't say I feel any better, I'm not putting too much weight on that since I didn't feel all that bad, emotionally speaking, to begin with.
But I read some more information today about the spectrum of PTSD, and I reluctantly have to admit, it fits.
Just today, I walked into Seth's bathroom, and had to catch my breath and steady my hand against the wall. I'd let him play with his bath toys -- 50 of these foam road and traffic pieces -- and they were strewn all over the bathroom floor. For a split second, my mind didn't register "toys," only "chaos."
Ugh.
It's the little things like that that creep into my everyday life that bring the awfulness of what happened three weeks ago back to the forefront of my mind. I know it will eventually fade; after all, it's only been three weeks. But, ugh. Let's just get on with this "getting over it" thing already.
Showing posts with label Duncan's pregnancy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Duncan's pregnancy. Show all posts
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Itty Bitty Update: 4/25/09
How far along? 21 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Lost a pound this week, so -1 lb for the pregnancy
Maternity clothes? Getting there. There is definitely a bump starting to form.
Stretch marks? Nope.
Sleep: Eh, some.
Best moment this week: Finally getting some medicine for the fever blisters that showed up Monday.
Movement: Oh, my, yes.
Food cravings: Not so much. I even treated myself to a Baby Ruth tonight, and didn't really enjoy it. Boo.
Gender: I'm assuming that it is still a boy. ;)
Labor Signs: No, but have been having Braxton-Hicks.
Belly button in or out? In.
What I miss: Being able to shave my legs in the shower. The small space (we have a separate shower and garden tub) combined with the growing belly makes it a little difficult.
What I am looking forward to: Working on our name list. All we know so far is that his name is NOT Sawyer.
Weekly Wisdom: n/a
Milestones: Going to my first non-scheduled "emergency" ob appt. (rolls eyes) All is well, and hopefully, I will be on my regular schedule from here on out.
Total weight gain/loss: Lost a pound this week, so -1 lb for the pregnancy
Maternity clothes? Getting there. There is definitely a bump starting to form.
Stretch marks? Nope.
Sleep: Eh, some.
Best moment this week: Finally getting some medicine for the fever blisters that showed up Monday.
Movement: Oh, my, yes.
Food cravings: Not so much. I even treated myself to a Baby Ruth tonight, and didn't really enjoy it. Boo.
Gender: I'm assuming that it is still a boy. ;)
Labor Signs: No, but have been having Braxton-Hicks.
Belly button in or out? In.
What I miss: Being able to shave my legs in the shower. The small space (we have a separate shower and garden tub) combined with the growing belly makes it a little difficult.
What I am looking forward to: Working on our name list. All we know so far is that his name is NOT Sawyer.
Weekly Wisdom: n/a
Milestones: Going to my first non-scheduled "emergency" ob appt. (rolls eyes) All is well, and hopefully, I will be on my regular schedule from here on out.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Itty Bitty update 4/18/09
How far along? 20 weeks even
Total weight gain/loss: Gained back the four lbs lost, so I'm +/- 0 lbs for the pregnancy.
Maternity clothes? Getting there. There is definitely a bump starting to form.
Stretch marks? Nope, but I've started lathering on the body butter, just in case.
Sleep: Eh, some. I've napped quite a bit this week. I think Seth is going through a growth spurt, so he's napping more, and I've joined him a couple days.
Best moment this week: Seeing our little baby on the ultrasound on Wednesday.
Movement: Oh, my, yes. More and more, and definitive. We have another kicker!
Food cravings: Still sugar, any form.
Gender: Gut was WRONG! We will welcome another son in August.
Labor Signs: None.
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: Eating more than three bites before feeling full.
What I am looking forward to: Working on our name list.
Weekly Wisdom: n/a
Milestones: Hitting the magic "half-way" point of 20 weeks, and finding out the baby's gender.
Total weight gain/loss: Gained back the four lbs lost, so I'm +/- 0 lbs for the pregnancy.
Maternity clothes? Getting there. There is definitely a bump starting to form.
Stretch marks? Nope, but I've started lathering on the body butter, just in case.
Sleep: Eh, some. I've napped quite a bit this week. I think Seth is going through a growth spurt, so he's napping more, and I've joined him a couple days.
Best moment this week: Seeing our little baby on the ultrasound on Wednesday.
Movement: Oh, my, yes. More and more, and definitive. We have another kicker!
Food cravings: Still sugar, any form.
Gender: Gut was WRONG! We will welcome another son in August.
Labor Signs: None.
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: Eating more than three bites before feeling full.
What I am looking forward to: Working on our name list.
Weekly Wisdom: n/a
Milestones: Hitting the magic "half-way" point of 20 weeks, and finding out the baby's gender.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Per the request of many...
And for what it's worth, the final poll results came in at 51% boy, 49% girl. The last vote tipped the scale. ;)
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Itty Bitty Update: 4/12/09
How far along? 19 weeks, 1 days
Total weight gain/loss: Don't have a clue; we have never owned a scale. I'll know after my appt. Wednesday.
Maternity clothes? Only one outfit this week, and again, not out of necessity, but due to the cuteness factor.
Stretch marks? Nope.
Sleep: Only with the help of Ambien, several times a week, per Dr. Morgan's orders.
Best moment this week: hmm....
Movement: Daily, fairly consistent, still mostly felt in the lower left quadrant.
Food cravings: Sugar, any form.
Gender: Gut still says girl. Only 3 days til we know.
Labor Signs: None.
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: Sleeping on my stomach comfortably. It's still possible, but not the most conducive to rest.
What I am looking forward to: Our ultrasound on Wednesday, and being able to start really thinking about names.
Weekly Wisdom: n/a
Milestones: Since my c-section will be between 38 and 39 weeks, I am officially half-way done with this pregnancy!
PS - Happy Easter, y'all!
Total weight gain/loss: Don't have a clue; we have never owned a scale. I'll know after my appt. Wednesday.
Maternity clothes? Only one outfit this week, and again, not out of necessity, but due to the cuteness factor.
Stretch marks? Nope.
Sleep: Only with the help of Ambien, several times a week, per Dr. Morgan's orders.
Best moment this week: hmm....
Movement: Daily, fairly consistent, still mostly felt in the lower left quadrant.
Food cravings: Sugar, any form.
Gender: Gut still says girl. Only 3 days til we know.
Labor Signs: None.
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: Sleeping on my stomach comfortably. It's still possible, but not the most conducive to rest.
What I am looking forward to: Our ultrasound on Wednesday, and being able to start really thinking about names.
Weekly Wisdom: n/a
Milestones: Since my c-section will be between 38 and 39 weeks, I am officially half-way done with this pregnancy!
PS - Happy Easter, y'all!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Itty Bitty Update - 4/7/09
How far along? 18 weeks, 4 days
Total weight gain/loss: Don't have a clue; we have never owned a scale. I'll know after my appt. next Wednesday.
Maternity clothes? Some tops. I feel like my rib cage is expanding. Even my bras feel too tight across the back. Boo.
Stretch marks? Nope.
Sleep: Only with the help of Ambien, several times a week, per Dr. Morgan's orders.
Best moment this week: Cute Pottery Barn Kinds bedding is on major clearance. If Itty Bitty is a girl, I've got my eye on a couple things.
Movement: Like Seth, Ityt Bitty is most active at night, and I've mostly felt movement in the lower left quadrant.
Food cravings: Today, it was a Burger King Whopper. Oh, it was sooooo good. Yesterday, after a tempting commercial, it was a Dairy Queen truffle Blizzard, but I haven't given in to that one yet.
Gender: Gut still says girl. Only 7 days til we know.
Labor Signs: None. When I was being monitored at the hospital on Friday (more on that later), I wasn't having any contractions and the fetal movement was perfect. Heart rate was in the high 150s.
Belly Button in or out? In, but it's starting to flatten out a bit.
What I miss: My laptop. Oh, wait, this is baby-related. Um, well, I'm almost to the point where belly sleeping isn't possible. That will be a sad day.
What I am looking forward to: Out ultrasound on the 15th.
Weekly Wisdom: back up photos of children and life in general weekly onto a flash drive or other photo storage website.
Milestones: First visit to Labor & Delivery.
Total weight gain/loss: Don't have a clue; we have never owned a scale. I'll know after my appt. next Wednesday.
Maternity clothes? Some tops. I feel like my rib cage is expanding. Even my bras feel too tight across the back. Boo.
Stretch marks? Nope.
Sleep: Only with the help of Ambien, several times a week, per Dr. Morgan's orders.
Best moment this week: Cute Pottery Barn Kinds bedding is on major clearance. If Itty Bitty is a girl, I've got my eye on a couple things.
Movement: Like Seth, Ityt Bitty is most active at night, and I've mostly felt movement in the lower left quadrant.
Food cravings: Today, it was a Burger King Whopper. Oh, it was sooooo good. Yesterday, after a tempting commercial, it was a Dairy Queen truffle Blizzard, but I haven't given in to that one yet.
Gender: Gut still says girl. Only 7 days til we know.
Labor Signs: None. When I was being monitored at the hospital on Friday (more on that later), I wasn't having any contractions and the fetal movement was perfect. Heart rate was in the high 150s.
Belly Button in or out? In, but it's starting to flatten out a bit.
What I miss: My laptop. Oh, wait, this is baby-related. Um, well, I'm almost to the point where belly sleeping isn't possible. That will be a sad day.
What I am looking forward to: Out ultrasound on the 15th.
Weekly Wisdom: back up photos of children and life in general weekly onto a flash drive or other photo storage website.
Milestones: First visit to Labor & Delivery.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
152, -4, 140/80, 4/15
Here are the stats from this morning's appointment:
Itty Bitty gave us a quick scare when we weren't able to readily or easily find his/her heartbeat, but after some not-so-gentle prodding, Dr. Morgan came up with a healthy, steady 152 beats per minute. Although down significantly from the 180s, it is still much higher than Seth's 130s, so even Dr. Morgan is holding to her prediction that Itty Bitty is a girl.
I have lost an additional 4 lbs since my last visit, which puts me down about 10 for the pregnancy. Dr. Morgan didn't seem overly concerned, but said that I shouldn't lose any more weight. She is okay if I don't gain for the next month, but that we may need to do some digging if I lose more weight by my next appointment.
My blood pressure, which I suspected was misbehaving, was 140/80. Not alarmingly high, but high enough to raise the nurses eyebrows. The plan is for me to take it as easy as possible in the next week, acquire a cuff to monitor at home, and stay hydrated. If it is up again at my next appointment, I will most likely be put on some BP meds. Boo.
No ultrasound today, but Jim and I have an appointment scheduled with both the ultrasound technician and Dr. Morgan for early Wednesday, April 15. Only three weeks until we can see Itty Bitty again, and hopefully find out if s/he is our son or our daughter.
In the meantime, Seth, I think, finally just dozed off for his nap, and as soon as I hit "publish post," I'm off to join him.
Itty Bitty gave us a quick scare when we weren't able to readily or easily find his/her heartbeat, but after some not-so-gentle prodding, Dr. Morgan came up with a healthy, steady 152 beats per minute. Although down significantly from the 180s, it is still much higher than Seth's 130s, so even Dr. Morgan is holding to her prediction that Itty Bitty is a girl.
I have lost an additional 4 lbs since my last visit, which puts me down about 10 for the pregnancy. Dr. Morgan didn't seem overly concerned, but said that I shouldn't lose any more weight. She is okay if I don't gain for the next month, but that we may need to do some digging if I lose more weight by my next appointment.
My blood pressure, which I suspected was misbehaving, was 140/80. Not alarmingly high, but high enough to raise the nurses eyebrows. The plan is for me to take it as easy as possible in the next week, acquire a cuff to monitor at home, and stay hydrated. If it is up again at my next appointment, I will most likely be put on some BP meds. Boo.
No ultrasound today, but Jim and I have an appointment scheduled with both the ultrasound technician and Dr. Morgan for early Wednesday, April 15. Only three weeks until we can see Itty Bitty again, and hopefully find out if s/he is our son or our daughter.
In the meantime, Seth, I think, finally just dozed off for his nap, and as soon as I hit "publish post," I'm off to join him.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Itty Bitty Update
"Your adorable little fetus is busy with thumb sucking, toe wiggling, and (not so cute but equally amazing) making urine and breathing amniotic fluid as the liver, kidneys and spleen continue to develop. Lanugo (thin, downy hair) is growing all over the body for warmth."I'm three weeks out from my next obgyn appt. I am still miserably nauseated, exhausted, and desperate for the second trimester energy to appear.
Maybe if the energy shows up, I'll be able to write a more riveting blog post than this. ;)
Friday, February 6, 2009
Labor Day
Labor Day was always kind of a non-event in our family. I mean, it was a day off work and/or school, but I don't ever remember really celebrating it in picnic/barbecue fashion.
Once I was college age, Labor Day was just a day spent going through registration, purchasing books, and settling into a too-small dorm room with two or three strangers.
Last year, we had a really enjoyable Labor Day picnic with some of our dearest friends (hi Jay and Andrea!!!) at their lakeside campground, eating ribs and holy-cow-these-are-hot jalapeno poppers, and roasting s'mores. To date, it was the best Labor Day on record.
But something tells me that this year will cruise into the winners' circle with the in-the-flesh arrival of this little itty bitty, on or around September 5th.
It is with great pleasure and no small amount of relief that Jim and Ifinally introduce you to our 5th child, currently about 10 weeks gestation. S/he has a beautiful heartbeat of 185 beats per minute, and looks "perfect," according to the ultrasound technician.
Once I was college age, Labor Day was just a day spent going through registration, purchasing books, and settling into a too-small dorm room with two or three strangers.
Last year, we had a really enjoyable Labor Day picnic with some of our dearest friends (hi Jay and Andrea!!!) at their lakeside campground, eating ribs and holy-cow-these-are-hot jalapeno poppers, and roasting s'mores. To date, it was the best Labor Day on record.
But something tells me that this year will cruise into the winners' circle with the in-the-flesh arrival of this little itty bitty, on or around September 5th.
It is with great pleasure and no small amount of relief that Jim and Ifinally introduce you to our 5th child, currently about 10 weeks gestation. S/he has a beautiful heartbeat of 185 beats per minute, and looks "perfect," according to the ultrasound technician.
His/her head is at the bottom right, and looking right to left, you see the left arm ("holding" the yolk sac), the belly, and the left leg
I will post more about this pregnancy -- how I found out, how I told Jim, how I'm been feeling. But for now, merely rejoice with us over our newest blessing.
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