Sunday, April 26, 2009

Originally titled something other than this

Wow. I have already been so tickled, blessed, and humbled by your responses to my last post, asking y'all to come out of the woodwork. (If you haven't fessed up yet, do so, please!)

The "humbled" part comes from the comments about the honesty in my writing.

And honestly, I feel kind of badly, because I feel like I'm not always honest. I'm always truthful, but I'm certainly not always as transparent as I might like to be. This was very clear to me when my dear Kendra pointed out that I was much nicer than she would have been in my open letter to our burglars. See, what I published was cordial enough, but it's certainly not a complete representation of how I truly feel about the people who invaded our home. Believe me, the draft in my head that did not get published had plenty of #@!!*! in it. ;)

I don't use this blog as the receptacle for my deepest, darkest emotions and feelings. Maybe on occasion, but at least not on a regular basis. It just kind of goes against what I feel the purpose of our (my?) blog is and has always been. However, I also don't use any other place as the receptacle for my deepest, darkest emotions and feelings, either. Which means I have a lot of emotions and feelings that aren't getting put anywhere.

Which leads me to think that just maybe, given that you guys seem to like reading my "honest" posts, I can start just writing, and can let up on the "filtering" a bit. I'll admit, there have been a lot of posts that I haven't even written, let alone published, because they seemed too self-indulgent.

Could I be talking in circles ANY MORE than I am right now?!?!

I just realized that this post is already too long to continue, at least with the story I was going to use to illustrate my point about letting myself be even more honest. So, stay tuned Monday for my thoughts on gender roles, corn hole, and mommy identity. Yep, all in one post. I'm just that good. ;)


Kendra said...

ohhhh staying tuned!!

I always appreciate your writings Mon, filtered or non.

Pieces of my Heart said...

HI- from "Pieces of my Heart" (Carrie) in Semmes, Al. I enjoyed reading your post...the "letters," how original! One of the reasons I just started my blog was to have a place to go, with other women; moms, wives, daughters, sisters and even sometimes victims of theft, to say how I'm feeling about things in my life. I think you should be able to vent if you need to.... filter free.

Forever For Evie said...

Hey Monica,
I met you in college in my freshman year, which I believe was your freshman year also. I don't know if you remember me or not since I was only there one year, but I met you through your roommate Wendy O., who is my close friend. I honestly can't even remember how I found your blog. Just wanted to let you know that I'm here, and reading. :) A big congrats on baby boy #2!!!

phasejumper said...

Can't wait! Oh- I call it corn TOSS, the other word just sounds gross. (like the word moist...nasty!)

Jessie Weaver said...

It's really taken me nearly 3 years of blogging to be able to let up and be more transparent--and that is when I started to get readers. (Not that that is the purpose, but it is nice.) Transparency and honesty is what makes me come back to blogs. Knowing that you're willing to confess that you're just as screwed up as I am. :)