In case you ever need to know, it only takes 4 minutes and 8 seconds to complete an over-the-phone order for an infant urn.
I feel like it should have been a much more involved process, but I'm finding that there are a lot of formalities surrounding the death of a child that are pretty straightforward. The hospital release, the health permit form at the funeral home, the urn. Sign here, here, and here.
And just like that, I'm relieved from any duty as Duncan's mommy. No field trip permission forms or report cards to sign. No baseball uniforms to purchase or trumpet lessons to arrange. No late-night-Christmas-Eve assembling parties or last minute dashes to the supply store for...well, for whatever it is he would have wanted for his fifth birthday party.
Just a few drops of ink and rattling off a credit card number, and it's done. So quick, and so final.
And that is SO hard.