Tuesday, May 26, 2009

A Good Day

I'm writing this Monday to autopost on Tuesday because I want to avoid the self-imposed pressure to write an "it's been a week since Duncan was born" post.

I am writing the story of Duncan's birth, from my first inclinations that something was wrong on Friday the 15th through saying goodbye on Wednesday the 20th. I'm taking my time, and I don't know how much of it will ever be published here on Writer Chic. Maybe not until next May? I dunno.

But I want to remember, Tuesday when I read this with the rest of you, and weeks from now when I'm having a not-so-great day. I want to remember that today, Memorial Day 2009, was a good day.

My entire family slept in until after 9, it's a not-rainy 77 degrees, KLOVE is playing songs I like, Seth is watching Jim so yard work and playing with dominoes, and really good friends are coming over for a cookout.

Yes, it's been a week since I was induced. Yes, I wish I were still pregnant and that Duncan were still alive in my womb. Yes, it hurts. A lot.

But today is a good day, and I'm happy and blessed.

5 comments:

Christy said...

I am still praying for you and thinking of you so often.

phasejumper said...

We love you Monica and want you to know we are praying for you.

Life in the South said...

I just got caught up. I'm so very sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family.

Sara said...

Sending more love your way. I hope the physical side of things calms down soon, sweetie. Love you! *hugs*

Kendra said...

Sending you love and prayers from Oregon.